{"id":3097,"date":"2017-10-03T12:20:47","date_gmt":"2017-10-03T04:20:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/?p=3097"},"modified":"2017-10-03T12:20:47","modified_gmt":"2017-10-03T04:20:47","slug":"ramped-up-creating-vs-a-sense-of-loss","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/?p=3097","title":{"rendered":"ramped up creating vs a sense of loss"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>WEEK THIRTY EIGHT &amp; THIRTY NINE (september 18 &#8211; october 1)<\/p>\n<p>This is the first time I&#8217;ve had a week off producing this <em>self imposed and totally self-directed post (conversation)<\/em> via this blog.<br \/>\nI was relieved that on a long weekend I didn&#8217;t have to push this particular task further into my &#8216;productive&#8217; space.<br \/>\nI felt quite proud of myself that I had allowed time for ramped-up creating instead of assessing the previous weeks production, or lack of production.<br \/>\nInitially I felt relieved that I had gently pushed out this (self imposed) deadline to my advantage.<br \/>\nNow as I settle to assess the last two weeks I am not so sure&#8230;.<\/p>\n<p>Certainly an overview of two weeks instead of one is always going to be more difficult but already, after this gap, I have a weird sense of loss.<br \/>\nThis time-gaining exercise has actually made it harder to reflect on the past (two) weeks.<br \/>\nAlready I feel that I will lose depth if I try to cover double the days.<br \/>\nPerhaps I am doing a disservice to my original aims?<br \/>\nNot sure and I don&#8217;t want to make hasty judgements.<\/p>\n<p>So what have I been up to in this double day week?<\/p>\n<p>I have been working constantly on the long winded Sulphur Crested Cockie project for a start. I have built up a load of cast-offs as the works <em>very slowly<\/em> reveal themselves.<br \/>\nThis trio now contains abstracts of a wing, a crest, and a tail.<br \/>\nThe trio will represent, in story and title only, stories of three famous domesticated Australian Sulphur Crested Cockatoos who all lived to a great age &#8211; Cocky Bennett, Cockie and Fred.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-3.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft size-full wp-image-3105\" src=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-3.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"2448\" height=\"2448\" srcset=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-3.jpg 2448w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-3-150x150.jpg 150w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-3-300x300.jpg 300w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-3-768x768.jpg 768w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-3-1024x1024.jpg 1024w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-3-600x600.jpg 600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 2448px) 100vw, 2448px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>I have fought long and hard, backwards and forwards, to refine the colours. I love the true-to-life sulphur yellow colouration but as I am sequestering colours from Taubmans I need to use what I am <em>given<\/em>&#8230;.though actually my frequent visits to Bunnings has me greedily, guiltily, but very thankfully <em>taking<\/em>.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-11.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft size-full wp-image-3113\" src=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-11.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"3063\" height=\"2159\" srcset=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-11.jpg 3063w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-11-300x211.jpg 300w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-11-768x541.jpg 768w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-11-1024x722.jpg 1024w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-11-600x423.jpg 600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 3063px) 100vw, 3063px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Realism is impossible in this technique as my &#8216;pixels&#8217; are not only large but they are also rectangular.<br \/>\nSometimes I feel like the task is set to fail. Sometimes I feel that it will be okay.<br \/>\nI cannot stop though &#8211; this particular piece has festered so long that its slow reveal is making it necessary to keep plugging away.<br \/>\nThe challenge is good for me.<br \/>\n<em>I will finish<\/em> it \/ them in the coming weeks&#8230;.<\/p>\n<p>The deadline of having work for The December Exhibition is a great incentive as is my desire to not diversify from my current path of paint chip\/Feathering the Nest AND the Knit1Purl1 series.<\/p>\n<p>Still, I cannot stop the ideas from flowing&#8230;.Knit1Purl1 obviously needs me to make sculptural &#8216;balls of yarn&#8217; big and small. And I would love to do some wide knitting and some fair isle, and, and, and. I&#8217;ll leave all the other flow-on ideas for the moment but how hard would a few balls of yarn with yarns, (stories), at the core of them be? I&#8217;d love to make a pile of them.<\/p>\n<p>The continuing accumulation of excess paint chip feathers could be turned into nests.<br \/>\nThe feathers could be layered, they could be tapered.<br \/>\nThey could be masked with paint or even covered in encaustic? This would be fun to do in 2-d as well<br \/>\nJust a set of little pieces????<a href=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-12.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft size-full wp-image-3114\" src=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-12.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"2448\" height=\"2448\" srcset=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-12.jpg 2448w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-12-150x150.jpg 150w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-12-300x300.jpg 300w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-12-768x768.jpg 768w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-12-1024x1024.jpg 1024w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-12-600x600.jpg 600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 2448px) 100vw, 2448px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Part of my eagerness to continue on these two themes is that I have, over the years, made many works that I would have loved to progress past their singular status. I have plenty of <em>next in the series<\/em> projects started&#8230;. then I have had to box and file them away to turn to the next important project. They await their time but usually there is <em>no time<\/em> for them to return to the lights of the studio as the next great project takes precedence. I carry the guilt of too many works-in-progress. I much prefer to be a finisher &#8211; to tick the box and to cross that thought line from my task list.<\/p>\n<p>Another part of my desire to continue on these two themes quickly is the need to change tack next year in preparation for next year&#8217;s December Gallery show.<br \/>\nHelen and I will be working to a subject and, although I will be able to work with my current themes &#8211; the domestic, home, women&#8217;s work and the decorative &#8211; the techniques, materials, and overriding subject matter will change.<\/p>\n<p>As a result I feel as though I only have a handful of weeks to finish projects which are well underway. I doubt whether I will have any time to develop any new pieces &#8211; even if they are only balls of yarn or simple nests.<\/p>\n<p>As always though, I live in hope <em>and I scheme unrealistically<\/em>&#8230; what if I stayed in the studio until 10pm every night? I do that now occasionally <em>but the next day is then skewed&#8230;.<br \/>\n<\/em><\/p>\n<p>What if I could become more savvy with the domestic side of my life.<br \/>\nMeals?\u00a0 Simple and quick. Heck I mostly do that already. I am no Masterchef, I don&#8217;t labour lovingly at the stove like I did when my youngsters were young and cooking was a wonderful way to dream and create.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-1.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft size-full wp-image-3103\" src=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"2448\" height=\"2448\" srcset=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-1.jpg 2448w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-1-150x150.jpg 150w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-1-300x300.jpg 300w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-1-768x768.jpg 768w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-1-1024x1024.jpg 1024w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-1-600x600.jpg 600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 2448px) 100vw, 2448px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>I have all but finished the four paper K1P1 &#8211; I just need to complete a couple of needles and labels. I have really enjoyed these quick projects, partly because finally I am using some of the thousands of trip photos I take, partly because they look great hanging on mass (even on a wall jumble). Sort of a pity that they are not all ticked off as complete but it is lovely to be living with them jumbled on the board instead of them boxed away for safe-keeping.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-9.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft size-full wp-image-3111\" src=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-9.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"2448\" height=\"2448\" srcset=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-9.jpg 2448w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-9-150x150.jpg 150w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-9-300x300.jpg 300w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-9-768x768.jpg 768w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-9-1024x1024.jpg 1024w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-9-600x600.jpg 600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 2448px) 100vw, 2448px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p><strong>I did get out to three galleries<\/strong>&#8211; something that has been a very unfortunate low priority of late;<\/p>\n<p>I visited WAFTA&#8217;s Altered States exhibititon. No photos were allowed so the photos following are from Greg Pryor&#8217;s beautiful &#8216;Looking Glass&#8217; room at <a href=\"http:\/\/www.artgallery.wa.gov.au\/exhibitions\/wa-focus-gregory-pryor.asp\">AGWA<\/a> which I saw straight after. Beautiful, clever, communal drawing. Inspiring in this awkward space.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-4.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft size-full wp-image-3106\" src=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-4.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"2375\" height=\"2375\" srcset=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-4.jpg 2375w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-4-150x150.jpg 150w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-4-300x300.jpg 300w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-4-768x768.jpg 768w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-4-1024x1024.jpg 1024w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-4-600x600.jpg 600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 2375px) 100vw, 2375px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p><em>We<\/em> also attended the opening of the <a href=\"https:\/\/www.fac.org.au\/whats-on\/post\/fac-print-award-supported-little-creatures-brewing-2\/\">Print Awards<\/a> at FAC. The bloke and I rarely miss the Print Awards and we&#8217;ve have very happily purchased a few Print Award prints over the years.<br \/>\n<em>There were a couple that we both loved <\/em>but (luckily\/unluckily) they were both way too big for our little abode&#8230;which also meant that we were way out of our budget comfort too. Still, we thought the standard was the best overall in years.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-5.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft size-full wp-image-3107\" src=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-5.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"2204\" height=\"2204\" srcset=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-5.jpg 2204w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-5-150x150.jpg 150w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-5-300x300.jpg 300w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-5-768x768.jpg 768w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-5-1024x1024.jpg 1024w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-5-600x600.jpg 600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 2204px) 100vw, 2204px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>We did manage to get to our little house over the long weekend. This year has been way too busy to get there as often as we want &#8211; which means that projects there are also VERY sluggish.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-6.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft size-full wp-image-3108\" src=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-6.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"2422\" height=\"2422\" srcset=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-6.jpg 2422w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-6-150x150.jpg 150w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-6-300x300.jpg 300w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-6-768x768.jpg 768w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-6-1024x1024.jpg 1024w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-6-600x600.jpg 600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 2422px) 100vw, 2422px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>The girls shed has had its first coat of white &#8211; floor and ceiling. The tongue and groove is beautiful but it is hard work. The ceiling is worthy of a spray gun (we may have to borrow one to ease the neck pain).<br \/>\nI loved our THREE rugged up\/fire feeding nights and our THREE putty and paint covered days.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-8.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft size-full wp-image-3110\" src=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-8.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"2416\" height=\"2416\" srcset=\"http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-8.jpg 2416w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-8-150x150.jpg 150w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-8-300x300.jpg 300w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-8-768x768.jpg 768w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-8-1024x1024.jpg 1024w, http:\/\/janmullen.com.au\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/weeks3839-8-600x600.jpg 600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 2416px) 100vw, 2416px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Hopefully, <strong>by christmas <\/strong>(it will happen because I write it in bold), we will have a clean, air conditioned space for the girls to create in and the family, <em>perhaps,<\/em> to play in.<br \/>\nWe will have forgotten our cricked necks by then.<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"border-radius: 2px; text-indent: 20px; width: auto; padding: 0px 4px 0px 0px; text-align: center; font: bold 11px\/20px 'Helvetica Neue',Helvetica,sans-serif; color: #ffffff; background: #bd081c no-repeat scroll 3px 50% \/ 14px 14px; position: absolute; opacity: 1; z-index: 8675309; display: none; cursor: pointer; top: 2388px; left: 20px;\">Save<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"border-radius: 2px; text-indent: 20px; width: auto; padding: 0px 4px 0px 0px; text-align: center; font: bold 11px\/20px 'Helvetica Neue',Helvetica,sans-serif; color: #ffffff; background: #bd081c no-repeat scroll 3px 50% \/ 14px 14px; position: absolute; opacity: 1; z-index: 8675309; display: none; cursor: pointer; top: 7452px; left: 20px;\">Save<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"border-radius: 2px; text-indent: 20px; width: auto; padding: 0px 4px 0px 0px; text-align: center; font: bold 11px\/20px 'Helvetica Neue',Helvetica,sans-serif; color: #ffffff; background: #bd081c  no-repeat scroll 3px 50% \/ 14px 14px; position: absolute; opacity: 1; z-index: 8675309; display: none; cursor: pointer;\">Save<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>WEEK THIRTY EIGHT &amp; THIRTY NINE (september 18 &#8211; october 1) This is the first time I&#8217;ve had a week off producing this self imposed and totally self-directed post (conversation) via this blog. I was relieved that on a long weekend I didn&#8217;t have to push this particular task further into my &#8216;productive&#8217; space. 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